Ruth 1:8-9:  But Naomi said to her two daughters-in-law, “Go back each of you to your mother’s house. May YHWH deal kindly with you, as you have dealt with the dead and with me.  YHWH grant that you may find security, each of you in the house of your husband.” Then she kissed them, and they wept aloud…
It always seems to be a climactic moment on the evening drama. The protagonist freezes and calls out, Security!! Yet, most of us don’t have the luxury to call out to the paid security staff.
Or do we?
In chapel yesterday, we were challenged to consider what kind of security we need. I can think of lots of security I want: money in the bank; mortgage paid; long-term health; my kids will live a long, happy, healthy life; a golden anniversary; and on and on. All the outlets on the power strip will be filled and safe from that random bolt of lightening. But what kind of security do I need? What kind of security do you need?
I try to enter Naomi’s world and understand what security would be for her. Security would be a family to care or her, a husband or sons. But now this security is gone. Her parental instinct is to get her daughters to safety which for her seems to be to get them back to their mothers where they can marry again into family. Life with a widow is not a secure prospect for the daughters-in-law. Either path is difficult. Go, or stay?
But there is one thing that is very real for me, and this is the notion of going back. Whenever I have tried to go back to something in the past, it has changed. I have changed. There really is not security in the re-do if I try to re-do from the place in the past. Because spiritually and physically I am at a new place. My choice is to stay or go. Staying is difficult. Moving forward is difficult. Which choice is right? And the real answer is that we do not know.
But what we do know is that God will be present with us in the midst of that choice. This is our security. This is our faith. This is our knowing that the outcome will be of God.
Does this mean it will be easy? No.
Does this mean there will be no suffering? No.
Does this mean there will be no pain? No.
But what it does mean is that peace will be in our grasp. We will be loved abundantly. It does mean that we can count on God to do something new if we will let go of our control and notice God’s plan which will be a peaceful path. Sometimes this means leaning in to the tension and moving forward into the difficult instead of retreating and going back.
Thanks be to God!