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Dust loves…

Romans 8:28

28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

I remember the first time I felt called by God.  It wasn’t Paul’s lightning bolt experience.  It was, however, a lightning bolt in my heart that shattered the wall the world and I had built up around it.  My heart was so full, I thought it would burst.  grandmas adventures 010

While attending a Pilgrimage (Cursillo) 3-day weekend, I heard God’s call to me.  I am his beloved.  I heard it through the voices of those who invited me, those who loved me (and still do) unconditionally, those who take time to listen to me and truly care about my journey.  I heard for the first time how God wants a relationship with me.  All God asks of me is to glorify Him in all that I do.

After this experience I really understood how all are called by God to do the same thing.  All are called to glorify Him in all things.  If we think glorifying Him leads to violence or tearing someone down, this is false and not a correct interpretation of scripture.  Paul tells us in Romans all who love God are called according to his purpose.

All have the invitation to love God.

To know God is to love God and all of God’s beloved.

We love God by loving all of God’s children.

For God first loved me.

And God first loved you.

I am pray for all of you who are participants and staff of 4th Day weekends.  Especially North Texas Presbyterian Pilgrimage #38 this weekend.   May God’s love overflow!

(c) 2015 The Rev. Lil Smith


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Dust judges…and dust condemns…

I remember the first time I judged someone.  I saw the words come out of my mouth.  I saw them tumble in the air with the hurt that was subconciously intended for the target.  i couldn’t hold the words in any longer.  Knowing that it would make me feel better and give me the power…out they came.  And they were a direct hit.  Bullseye.  

I knew the effect the darts had on her, because there was instantly shame in her eyes that turned into radiating anger as the moments went on.

I thought it would make me feel better to get those words off my chest.  Words that were hurled  with great intent.  Yet, as the apostle Paul reminds us in his letter to the letter to the Romans, I do the very think I do not want to do.  I wanted to release the judgment from me, but I did not want to hurt her the way that I did.

A friend lost in my need to feel better about myself.  Dust judges.

Realizing the unintendid consequence of my strike, I begain to apologize and ask forgiveness.  Undeserved forgiveness.  And I hoped for grace.  But there was no grace.  Dust condemns.

As I sit in this world as a piece of dust this Lenten season and today in particular, I am holding the incident at OU before me.  Dust judges.  Dust condemns.  As if holding a heavy rock, I feel the weight of them, and I realize I must put one of them down to hold and offer forgiveness.  

I hold the enormity of the incident and the consequences that followed and contnue to unfold in prayer: God of grace and mercy, take the stones from their hands.  Stones that judge and condemn with hatred.  In their place, give them words of compassion and forgiveness. Stones that judge and condemn will kill.  Words that offer compassion and forgiveness will bnng new life and transformation.  I pray for a world that will allow this conversation to take place.  I pray that instead of condemning and being condemned we understand we are dust with the promise of transformation in the grace of Jesus the Christ.  The One who walked the earth as dust and fully understands our sinful nature.  The One offering forgiveness and compassion.  The one who understands when no one else does.  The One who needs us as agents of transformation, vessels of grace, willing to take a stand against the crowd and offer words of forgiveness and compassion for everyone.  For we all need them.  We are dust.  Dust judges…and dust condemns.

(c) 2015 The  Rev. Lil Smith

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Dust gathers…

Dust gathers.  There is no doubt about it.  

It gathers high and low, on small spaces and large spaces.  It is not noticeable alone.  It takes many pieces of dust to be seen.  This does not diminish the individual piece, for each piece of dust makes a difference.  

Each piece of dust makes a difference to the other dust it encounters.  Does the dust bless or curse the other pieces?  It seems to me this is the independence of the dust: the choice to bless or to curse.

Today, sit with this idea of the impact you make on the world as a piece of dust.  Where do you bless?  Where do you curse?  How does God want to transform you into God’s agent of blessing?

I am grateful to all those who I encounter today as agents of blessing.  I pray that I may live beyond myself and be a blessing to others.

With a grateful heart,


(c) 2015 The Rev. Lil Smith

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